Every time we argue, i feel like i've died inside.
I feel like our feelings clash and our feelings collide.
Hearing your irritated voice, bite at my ear.
As the dawn of this day, slowly comes near.
I have to slow down my speech and take a step back.
So i can watch what i say and watch how you react
It has been a long while, since i have seen your face.
Everything since that day, it all seems out of place.
I wake up in the morning and i barely remember the day,
stumbling into the bathroom, everything seems so gray.
I look in the mirror and i barely recognize my face
trying to smile. trying to laugh. there is no trace
It is hard for me to hide, the things i feel in my head
i know that sometimes, i get so down, and i say "I'm... better off dead"
i don't know what I'm thinking, when those words come from my soul
to tell you the truth, making you smile and making you laugh is my only goal.
It is hard for me to show, the things i feel inside myself
over time you will see, the thing is, you have to see them yourself.
i cant just show you, i cant make you feel what i feel
it is a lot more complicated then that, it all just seems surreal.
I feel bad sometimes, for the way i treat you, and the way i let you treat me
I mean really now, we're perfect for each other, we both know it's meant to be.
but if it is meant to be and we both see that we are so perfect
why must we fight. why must we yell. have we not taken effect?
I am sorry for allowing myself, to get so down at times
its just when i think of my past, it eats me up inside
there must have been something i could have done
something to prevent this ache
anything i could have done, to prevent such a mistake.
