Life

Life
Is the most complicated thing,
So much confusion it does bring
Confusion leads to doubts and doubts to fear
I lost everything I once held so dear

Inside of me there is a big black hole
I feel like I was stabbed with a pole
My body aches and trembles
I can feel it as my life crumbles

Broken, hurt, and feeling numb
How could i have been so dumb
This pain was once very distant
Now it is truly existent

My true self I have to hide
I tell you that I'm ok, but I lied
This smile is painted on
But deep inside my smiles are gone

I don't like who I am
Why doesn't somebody just hit me with a ham
I feel so worthless and alone
These are all feelings I've never shown

Who I am and who I seem to be
Are completely different, don't you see
I put on an act so you won't see
Who I truly don't want to be