For my friends...i'm sorry.

I wish i could write these words
and make everything ok
I would do it in a heartbeat
if only i knew the way

and I am sorry that i can't
be happy or love myself
and I am truly sorry
i keep putting my feelings on the shelf

I am sorry that i'm up all night
these tears I never cease to cry
and I am sorry i can't be happy for you
and i am sorry i don't know why

i would understand if you hated me
plenty already do
and i would understand if that's how you felt
i swear to you it's true

I am sorry i can't be strong
or brave the way you are
And I am sorry i can't see in me
a beautiful shining star

I am sorry that i frustrate you
or make you feel sad
I am sorry that i can't change
it makes me crazy mad

but no matter how often i continue to say
please don't ever leave
cuz though i don't always show it
without you my heart would grieve

i need you
every single friend
i need you to keep me moving forward
to reach a safe end.