I Can't Do It Anymore

If it wasn't for that little boy
Who loves his mother to death.
I would never speak to her again.
She let me down
And because of that I frown.
How could she do this?
Truth be told, it's not her that I miss.
I'm tired of having to forgive and forget.
Isn't it easy to simply never bother with it?
I'm mad at her for all the trouble she's caused
God help me,
I hate her and her flaws.
She says she gets it but she doesn't get anything.
She can't even show her face because she's ashamed of everything.
Just looking at her makes me sick.
Hearing her put on her dramatics,
I'm sorry, I know I did wrong
Screw her, I've heard this all before like a stupid radio song.
Like a broken record always skipping and replaying,
This time it's his life worth saving.
She doesn't see that what she does has its consequences.
Everywhere I turn,
I see people judging me because of her.
God please help me,
Stop hating her.
I'm tired of always having to accept the fact that she is family.
Somehow I wonder if she will ever learn.
I laugh at myself,
What am I talking about?
Of course she'll never understand.
The pain we've had.
God, I love her I truly do.
But is it a sin if I hate her too?
That little boy watches everything she does,
I�m glad I won't be here,
To see the day when he gives her the brush,
Everything happens for a reason.
God it's in your hands,
In your hands is where her fate lands.
Please save me from feeling this way,
I love her but I'm tired of keeping my feeling at bay.
I�m stronger without all this pain.
Hopefully she'll realize what she's doing.
Who she's hurting,
God help her soul,
Because I just cant do it anymore.