I Lost that day, when I was the happiest I had been
When you spoke those words, I thought it was sin
It tore my heart apart inside
It made me crazy
Made me want to die
I lost it the next day at school
My best guy friends, thought you were being uncool
They told me I deserved so much more
Yet they were what I wish I could have and adore
They do not like me the way you did
They just worry, and keep me from my own sins
They care for me so very much, but that is all
They pick me up everytime I fall
They dry my tears
Let me hold them close
Listen to my sadness and remorse
They take away the things I crave
The things that keep me sane
The things that make me kill myself little by little each day
They take them and keep them far away
But one day i won't be so unable to get those things back
One day I'll cry and cry, and none of them will stop that
I will eventually pull a blade across my wrists or throat
Then that day you left
The day you walked away
Will be the worst thing you will ever know
Because after that, I will let go
