He says he loves me but he says he loves her. He says he wants to spend the rest of his life with her and yet once upon a time he said it to me. I love him more than anything in the hole world. I would do ANYTHING just to make sure that he was the happiest he could ever be. He said that there would b a time when we would get a second chance at things, but its been four months since he said that. I know I hurt him, and I know I hurt him bad, but Ive changed and I would give up anything and do anything just to have a chance to show him that Ive changed. If only he knew how much He ment... means to me. Hw would then finaly know why I cry every night, and that I wish and pray every night that I could kiss him and never have to stop, or be able to lay in his arms and never have to move, and that every smile that I wear is fake. He doesnt know it but every time I see them togeather I die a little more inside just knowing that she has him and I will never get that chance again to tell him just exactly how much he means to me. With out him I just dont feel complete. I hate myself and I talk down myself every second of every day because of how I hurt him. If only he knew what goes through my head every time I see him. God he has no clue how sorry I am for hurting him. I would give up and do anything just to hear him call me his again. That would be all my dreams and wishes come true. I love him and never stopped and will stop. I wish I knew what he was thinking when he looks at me a smiles. I love him, always will and always have.
