In Hiding

I write to show who I am
I smile to hide the anger and pain
But behind closed doors
I too have problems

I don't open up to show I'm strong
I don't tell others because I'm scared
Scared of what they'd think
Scared of being alone

Yet by not telling people
I already feel alone
What must I do to overcome this?
What must I say to not show I'm a coward?

Deep inside I'm confused and hurting
But no one really sees
I can be quiet or be social
But no one really notices (or do they?)

At work I must put on a fake smile
I guess I'm used to that because I do it in reality
The mask I put on is steadfast
But it's gradually cracking

Breaking into pieces no longer able to hide the sorrow
Confused yesterday, in pain today, what of tomorrow?
Will it be different? Filled with hope and opportunities?
Or just lead to a destructive path?
I shall find out.....