If you died tomorrow...

If you died tomorrow
I would not feel sorrow
No, to feel sorrow
Another heart I'd have to borrow

If I could cry
I would scream to God "Why!"
"Why, oh God, why
Did he have to die?"

In numbness I would walk
To no one I could talk
Even if I wanted to talk
At the heavens I would gawk

Such a beautiful angel you would be
A heavenly beauty that'd I'd pray to see
A being on earth that I could see
Disguised blessing God gave to me

I wish to forget
So many things I regret
Though I could never regret
Such a dirty little secret

Yes I would cry
If he were to die
As so would this borrowed heart die
If he bid this world goodbye

If only he were like my tear
One I could wipe away with no fear
But without him is a life I do fear
And yet I do not want him anywhere near.