No Matter How Hard I Try, I Hope You Won't

Iâ??ll call up; talk quietly, just to hear your voice, distantly
Iâ??ll ask whoâ??s there, just so I can hear someone, say your name again
(I lose my breath)
When your not home, Iâ??ll lay where you sleep (again), imagining you were there, and know you will be
I hope you hear this and not think itâ??s for you, I know Iâ??ll feel it, because whatever you donâ??t say, I know Iâ??ll cry

Because we will never ever ever, be together
No matter how hard I try, I hope you wonâ??t.

I donâ??t pretend, anything, is any different, than what it always will be
I wish things would change, â??cause Iâ??m craving you, I donâ??t wanna waitâ?¦
Because I know youâ??re not waiting for me!
But I know Iâ??m doing the right thing!

Because we will never ever ever, be together
No matter how hard I try, I hope you wonâ??t.

This is getting worse and worse for me; I wish I could say us
I wonâ??t cry, because Iâ??m prepared not to be with you
I could cruelly follow my heart and let your life fall apart
I see one way through, and they are three words.
(Wait for me)â?¦ and Iâ??ll catch up soon,
But I know you wonâ??t, you will leave me while you live on your life

Because we will never ever, ever, be together
No matter how hard I try, I hope you wonâ??t.

I really pray that what you did, you are recovering from it,
Not just the physical injuries, but the stability of your mind
This wonâ??t be just a song, this will be pages dedicated to you
I will read this, and cry from the truth, and share it without saying your name

I wonâ??t cry your name and ruining the small piece of bliss I already have from your ignorance, the unknowing you still smiling at my face, scaring away the dark from my heartâ?¦ that was broken before I met you.

This little heart is one of two, reminding me of everything you remind me of too.
Keep my head above the dark, dark waters I dive into
Donâ??t stop smiling, donâ??t stop laughing with me
Donâ??t ignore me, but never try

Because we will never ever, ever, be together
No matter how hard I try, I hope you wonâ??t.

Wearing a shirt that has your sent made me hold it closer
Hold a small piece of you to me, and think of what could be
If I were a little closer a little closer to what, who and when you are

I find it hard to go without a thought of you
As you gave, and are giving me will to be happily here

You donâ??t know and I donâ??t know
To hope if you will never. Ever?

Because we will never ever, ever, be together
No matter how hard I try, I hope you wonâ??t.

I feel you are more comfortable near me, as am I.
Tickle my humor and feet, both are nice
Noticing what I wear
Lending me your clothes
You really make me feel special

I wanna show to you that I can be interesting
Although I may never have had to prove myself to you
I canâ??t believe it, I can smile over that

Even If Weâ??ll Never Be Together
I love you the same

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NOTE
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This is less a poem and more an expression of how I feel towards a particular. I still would like feedback if offering.