12 o clock
i hear the chimes
you come into my room
not for the list time
i push my self
against the cold wall
knowing that soon i will hear your call
time ticks by
its feels so slow
not knowing when
you will go
the door it opes
just an inch
you slide right threw
i start too flinch
i feel you hand
upon my knee
please just stop
please let me be
i take a breath
and keep it in
when did this start
why did it begin?
my loving cousin
i looked up to you
like a brother
now were threw
i hate the look upon your face
you filled me with hate
and made me a disgrace
my mom
she wonders
why i'm so sad
and i want to tell her
but will she be mad?
your hand moves up
your on my thigh
fingers moving
i start to cry
"stop it "
you say
i do as i'm told
my fear overwhelms me
i am no longer bold
i feel the pressure
of you pushing me down
i look all around me
you make funny sounds
your fingers stop moving
instead you start to rub
i want to scream
i want to run
but i'm to afraid
and so alone
your the only one here
no one else is home
you undo your pants
and something it moves
i fell so much pressure
what can i do
you cover my mouth
with your lips
and i want to puke
what is this
whats going on
in my own home
no one can help
no place to go
three months later
i start to get big
my mother complains
your eating like a pig
whats wrong wit you
your getting fat
she feels my tummy
and that is that
we go to the store
and buy a stick
i go and pee
i feel so sick
it turns out blue
what have you done
now thanks to you
i will be a mum.!
