Why all these tears?

I'm really looking, for a reason to cry.
I'm really trying to keep these tears inside.
I'm really tired, of not knowing why.
I'm really afraid, trying to hide.

But wherever i hide or go.
These tears always follow me.
whispering; told you so.
and I'm screaming; let me be!

I want an explanation!
I scream in my head.
But its all my imagination.
And i feel like I'm dead.

There's no reason to cry,
i tell myself everyday.
But suddenly i know why.
I miss him so, i have to say.