Crossroads

Here I stand, in the middle of this dark lonely road, staring off into the distance wondering which way I should go. Any way will take me from my pain, take me from the living hell that is my life. Every way leads to uncertainty,but will any lead to happiness ? The answer is as it always is, as it always was; no. I'm not allowed happiness, I'm doomed to wander these roads forever searching for what I'll never find. I stand at a crossroads in my life, which road do I take ? Which road might lead me to happiness ? Which road will take me the furthest from my pain, my loneliness, my despair. I stand here uncertain of my future, uncertain if I will even have a future. My life is spiraling out of control, in a beautiful ballet of self destruction. My only traveling companions are Chaos and Anarchy, both silently wait for me to make the wrong decision, so that they might feast and gorge themselves on my misery. No matter what my choice will be, all roads lead to the same destination. So am I at an impasse, or do I traverse these roads blindly hoping to find happiness ? The future holds no promises, only more uncertainty.