I did this to myself.

by Natalie   Mar 21, 2008


You didn't raise this hell within me,
I did that myself,
By letting my dreams flee,
I renounced my soul.

How do you let go of an addiction,
End that passion,
And hold on to life with real conviction?
I'm not who I used to be.

Childish aspirations I hung on to,
Of hopes and ideologies,
Never realizing they'd never be true.
I did that to myself.

I thought you were someone I knew,
Someone I could love,
Gave you my heart through and through.
Never imagined I did that alone.

Now time moves me on,
To territory I know not.
I can only hope, some how, I have grown.
I did this to myself.

I hope someday I'll rejoice in a love that's real,
A love that is unconditional,
A man who, my essence, will never, ever steal.
I shall, someday, do that to myself.

© Natalie M. Sarantos

21.03.08 2.44am

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  • 16 years ago

    by Gizmo

    Kinda seems a personally thing and i had to read over it a few times to take it all in.

    retourical questions are a genusis way to grab the audience and get there attention, but then again it also gives you a way of asking the questions you never and probally never will get answers too.

    the rhyming and the lanuage used were fantastic and i wouldn't expect anything else of you lol

    it was a toucing poem, made me thing of my boyfriend and our relationship. so really well done.

  • 16 years ago

    by Mr. Darcy

    Natalie, unlike some of your other pieces of work, I believe this originates closer to home?

    You didn't raise this hell within me,
    I did that myself,
    By letting my dreams flee,
    I renounced my soul.

    ^^ an exceptance of guilt to spare, or draw the blame away from someone else?

    How do you let go of an addiction,
    End that passion,
    And hold on to life with real conviction?
    I'm not who I used to be.

    ^^ Good questions to raise. To love somebody truely you have to give yourself to one another, thus becoming one and losing a little of yourself. (it's all about equal balnce)

    Childish aspirations I hung on to,
    Of hopes and ideologies,
    Never realizing they'd never be true.
    I did that to myself.

    ^^This is where many of us (myself inc') project what we wish for in a person onto the person you meet. It is, as I have found too much for anyone to live up to. A sad, but true fact!

    I thought you were someone I knew,
    Someone I could love,
    Gave you my heart through and through.
    Never imagined I did that alone.

    ^^We all love in different ways. So why do we project our ideals onto that 'someone special', expecting them to already know how we need to be loved?

    Now time moves me on,
    To territory I know not.
    I can only hope, some how, I have grown.
    I did this to myself.

    ^^ I love this stanza, moving on, lessons learnt - new love to be found.

    I hope someday I'll rejoice in a love that's real,
    A love that is unconditional,
    A man who, my essence, will never, ever steal.
    I shall, someday, do that to myself.

    ^^ Unconditional love is on the horizon for us all. It's acheived when two souls merge their hearts, minds and caress each other's passions. When love flows freely, it grows easily.

    Thank you for making me think.
    Michael 5/5 (nice rhyme too!)

  • 16 years ago

    by cookiemonster

    The poem is amazing (: its realtive to what i wrote.