Me in Words

These are just some words that come to mind when I think of myself. Be prepared, some if it won't make any sense to some of you. Feel free to send me a message if u don't get something though, but don't rate it if you don't get it, I'll bite your head off. Also, it turns into an actual poem at some point, because I can't do anything without asking why, and so, that has to be part of this.
The sequence is also of importance -

I'm crazy,
It's hazy,
I'm old,
Too bold.

Schizophrenic,
Pathogenic,
Unhappy,
So crappy.

Insomniac,
Pandemoniac,
Irrelevant,
Too benevolent.

Hell
Swell
Simmer
Shimmer

Well where is the peace?
When did it become deceased?
Where have all the memories fled?
Why go quietly to the dead?

Indiscriminate,
Useless aggregate,
Undeniably stolid,
However squalid

I'm well over maimed,
I remain untamed,
Completely ashamed,
Too many things retained