Pain comes back around

I'm sorry for the pain i caused
& the hurt i made you feel
i never meant to break your heart
& i hope that soon it will heal
But you see you made me cry
i lost almost all control
i tried to prove my love was true
but now you'll never know
you never seemed to take the time
to understand who i really am
& i guess you thought my love of you
was nothing but a sham!
each night my heart it calls for you
and i cry so many tears
i miss you with a hunger
that will last for many years
and even though i smile
and seem to keep my cool
inside I'm torn apart
cause your love just wasn't true
i miss the touch of your lips
the feel of your bare skin
I'm trying to keep it under control
but i fear i will not win
the times we spent together
the nights we spent alone
my memories won't go away
and i feel just so prone
please promise me
that you will think
about the times we shared
and although I'm not beside you
I'll always be right there
so when your ready to try again
to be loved with a love thats true
know that you could never love me
just as much as i love you

*this isn't about me its just something i wrote
I'm with a wonderful man that i love with all my heart and although we have our bad times we share so many good
I love you Wesley with all my heart and soul and i swear to you my darling
that I'll never let you go*