How many?

How many roles would I play?
How many lies would I say?
For I want to find the way
For I want to see the day
How many songs would I sing?
How many lines would I read?
For you to know the story
For you see the glory
I now live on the obis
But I want to be on your list
How many times would I search?
How many hours would I learn?
That you're not a part of me
That it wasn't meant to be.