Always just watchin my back making sure da haters didnt blast my back. Always lookin both ways before crossing making sure da enemy wasent around. Later i noticed i was my own enemy, i was afraid of myself, noticed i blended in to ma people i was only noticed wen i fought against others and left dem on da floor. I never noticed i hurt so many wit my actions, i only saw wat dey did to me. I destroyed lives by ending it and hurting families wen dey "suddenly disappered" and i, knowing dey were underground. Seeing dat my only family is ma hood knowing even my father was afraid of me. He, being locked up knew wat i was up to and still i swore to be diffrent and i look at myself in da mirror and see im just a copy of him watching ma back and ma homies back, ending people lives, even innocent ones, sure dat one day i will be behind bars and die but never out of may L.A hood always backing it up, even though late nite i wish my life was diffrent but i know da damage ive done is der forever and i will never smile since if i do i can get killed for looking weak
my lifes been hard wit my concious on ma back but dats me and my family ma hood have ma back till da grave.
