Just Don't!

Don't do that!
Walk in yelling
Then suddenly calm once you stare
And see my face
It destroys me

As I hand you the pipe
You grasp my hand
I looked down at the ground
I couldn't handle it

When you smiled
My heart stopped

Oh and how I've missed your eyes!

Once you laughed
I almost cried

I miss your presence
Your grace
The energy you hold inside

But you are not the same
You are not truthful

And you are living a lie

So what am I to do?