Grey clouds fill the sky...
And rain begins to fall...
I stand outside and I cry...
The day you left was the end...
I couldn't believe I lost my only best friend...
Everything was so well just yesterday...
But then you had gone away...
I lay with your blanket that has ur name sewn on it...
And I sit here thinking to myself....
How could God hurt his own child?...
How could he allow such pain?...
Now he doesn't have to wonder why I love standing in the rain....
It's been 3 weeks since you left me here alone...
And I still see your smiling face....
My heart you have paved in stone....
I try not to cry...
But all i wan is to say goodbye...
And i want to know why...
Your not with me any more...
Ur all i ever wanted...
So why can't it b like it was before?....
....I was walking down the lonely street with the nine in my hand...singing that song i sang to u to help u go to sleep...i held ur picture in my hand...and i took my last god willing stand....i made it thru the first few weeks...but now i have to let go....i arrived at ur tomb stone...and sat right beside it...i whispered "mommy loves you"....and i closed my eyes....tears fell....and so did I...i put that gun up to my head....and 3 seconds later i was dead....
