Man i love your writting soo much they all are like mine but diffrent. idk. this is really good and i know how you feel ive been there and im there now. its really hard. but keep strong and maybe if it doesnt work out between u and victor maybe theres some one out there for you. b/c the thingd you want the most your better off w/out and i learned that the hard way i had the same situation as u and victor and i had to let go and it toook me 3 years to get over it and i still am. i hope it works out between u guys. hey do u have any cousin i can have lol just playing.
niki