I leave a family behind

I leave a family behind,
Brothers and sisters,
I love more than my own life,

We have all gone our own ways,
We have all chosen our destiny,
Except I,

I have fallen behind,
Where am I?,
Who am I?,
What am I doing with my life?,

There's a daily battle in my mind,
Should I go or leave,
Its no longer a question,
For its been decided,

Soon I'll be gone,
Papa will only have my empty room to stare at,
The same room that he would bypass each day,
Without saying a loving word,

I wonder if he will ever know,
That all I wanted to hear from his mouth,
Were those three little words,
"I love you",

But most of all "I'm proud of you"
I hold him so highly in my eyes,
I feel as if I have failed.