Thirteen Held Better Days

Troubled by the welcome of unstable loneliness
Considering the state of my own life
Maybe I wasn't the only girl living in denial
Another Saturday morning, I woke up in a miserable condition
I surrendered my image to high school scrutiny
Shocked by the feeling of a mother's cold hands
And the question of why I've changed
In an effort to feel better, I let go of all that I once woke up for
Anyone knows it just makes things worse
Distance I've put between myself and I
Creeps up when I'm asked how I'm feeling these days
Ten miles above the speed limit, I let my hair down
But every second droned out as usual
Taking into account the earth's rotation
It was amazing I ever arrived anywhere
Lessons I could've learned from messed up teens
Were out of the question for my father
I had to grow up the hard way, on my own
And as I remember every moment from thirteen
I wonder how I ever made it to sixteen