To me your dead

Don't forget the kisses,
don't for get the tears,
is high school really some of the best years?
your pictures are falling off my white wall.
its not the first time i watched you fall.
those sleepless nights i can never get back,
from listening to you cry,as a matter of fact.
your nothing to me now.

your not imprinted on my heart,
but your running through my mind.
it hurts to think,
this happens all the time.
do you remember those summer days?
when we would walk around,laugh,and play?
yeah ill admit i don't love you but i miss you,
yeah ill admit you meant something to me,but you were so untrue.

why did you have to hurt me.
why did you have to leave me alone.
i cried and i pleaded i worked to the bone.
to save such a friendship that meant nothing.
you didn't even fight for me,like the times i fought so hard for you.
our perfect sky has shattered and turned a darker blue.

sad eyes turn and look at me.
but i don't want their sympathy.
not any longer since your not by my side.
what you did to me was so not right,
you disrespected me in so many ways.
that its such and eyesore to see your face.
i obviously didn't mean much.
to have you screw my crush
in my bed.
so next time you see me,
i hope you realize to me your dead.

*the best friend is a guy who screwed my crush,also a guy,in my bed. and i hate him so much and i cant bring myself to forgive him so this poem was me blowing off some steam*