She wanted him back

Did you have to be like that.
Did you have to smoke.
Did you have to do drugs.
Did you have to drive like that with me in the passenger seat.
Did you have to drive right into the car in front of us.
I survived and you didn't.

This is what she thought.
This is what happened to her boyfriend and her.
She missed him.
She needed him back.
She wished that he could be alive to tell her that he loved her.
She wanted him back.