Very interetsing and nice to read. Enjoyed reading it!

My sympathy, and empathy, are with you here....what inspired this sad (and well-written..'-) lament is, I think, an existential sense of despair waiting to be overcome...a universal (yes, I, also, have truly had it) experience called perhaps, 'dark night of the soul'....(of course there IS much to propel one in that direction)
My current view, as you can probably discern, is that there is no place without angels...angels ever ready to be called upon for help....logic promotes the following thought...If demons abound, so then do angels.....Free Will is, I think, deeply involved in potential solutions to any dilemma....and there is much proof for 'as we think, so we become'...

PS....I totally disagree on one point....Life IS for heroes!!...
Strive On.