Fall In Love Again

I remember those days as if they just taken place
The thought of your presence put a smile on my face
Palms feeling moist, heart beating uncontrollably fast
But all I can do is remember because this is the past
Not sure what happened to all those beautiful times
They were so fulfilling like a soulful rhyme
And now I sit and write how my feeling has changed
While you sit there depressed asking why I feel this way
I really don't know why I can't feel what I felt then
God knows I wish I can fall in love with you again.

You are like a diamond hidden in the mist
Very rare and special, but yet my ignorance is bliss
For I cherished you so deeply but I went astray
Thinking you'll still be hidden when I return someday
But I can still see your shine through the chaotic changes
With all my flaws in my hands all my unpleasant phases
I continue to push you away as if you are a mistake
When at one time I was in a drought and you were my lake
And now I sit here wishing I was free to this world of sin
But deep in my heart I wish to fall in love with you again

Why can't I just feel the love I once had for you?
Why can't my one and only wish suddenly come true?
How come I can't live the life that I know I need to live?
How come I can't give the love that I know I need to give?
Will you wait for love to fill my heart, or find another?
I will just except the fact we are not made for each other
You deserve so much more then an unsure confused lover
God please touch my body and soul free me from this sin
Do what ever you can to make me fall in love with my husband again.