I have lost

I can't tell you why
But I still want to try
I'll love you 'till I die
Baby please do not cry

I know that it's weird
But I hold you dear
But now you're not near
And I shed the tear

It's just as I feared
My love is sincere
It can't persevere
Alone I am here

Perhaps this is best
But my heart protests
I'm not like the rest
I failed this test

So what can I do?
These feelings for you
Are heavy and true
I can't start anew

The moments we shared
Back when you still cared
At my heart they tare
This pain I can't bare

And now I will chose
What I have to lose
Emotions abused
I think I will snooze

Forever in sleep
Eternally deep
I'll no longer weap
Our memories keep

I'm not gonna lie
This love that's inside
It cannot survive
This is a goodbye

So much I have tried
But now I'm deprived
No more will I hide
once I will have died

My death will bring
An uneasy sting
Will the angels sing
or the bells of hell ring?

I hope that you see
What you did to me
I loved you Cindy
and that made you flee

Again I'm alone
Writing poems on my phone
which will never be shown
and no one will have known

When I am finally dead
Lying still in this bed
Not a tear will you shed
But a smile instead

This is what you've done
You must think you have won
I will still love you hun
But not as much as the gun...