The dark and lonely side

Cold and dark within...matches the night perfectly.
forbidding tears to flow i cry within....
best friend gives me the silence...
and him well there's nothing new...

what was a happy time has now become the darkness
that darkness that makes me want to do the most evil of things.
thinking positive... until a fog rolls in...
now the mind is numb and empty.

the cold swells and the dark increases its strength...
now I'm a hopeless case... all alone in the dark... beyond the reach of what i crave.

miss the hugs, the love, the people who want me, the friends i thought i had. living in the loneliness wishing I'd been a better person for all those who don't want me around.

I'm sorry I'm not the person they want
the strength they need
the rock to help them stand
the one who makes them laugh when they feel they cant
and the one to love them when they feel no one cares/

I'm sorry to be me...and not what they all need...
forever more i will sit here in the dark and be the carrier of pain. and forever i shall be the one to apologize