Saved By Distance

Ever since I lost control, I find it hard to breathe
I thrash around, enduring the darkest dreams
I open a window and beg for a breeze
I bruise my pillow, blaming the walls for no sleep
I pray someone will catch me before I fall in too deep
I'll close my eyes searching for some peace
I promise to never wake until the phone rings

Ever since I found my way back to El Dorado, I've been alone
I look into his eyes for belief of what he calls calm
Everything I ever wanted to see was back home
I would've been saved if I knew I was so close
But what I lost it what I took on the road
I had to fight for what I thought I chose
I promise to never love since the day my heart froze

Ever since I found you back behind the field
I try to grab a hold of what was always real
I was just scared of what I would ever feel
If the feeling would leave or tattoo and seal
The heart I once had decided on an impulse to peal
Every song I once took to heart had no appeal
I never realized how much I lost until the feeling killed