Loosing Will And Passion

It felt like something was strangling my soul
Like something was sitting right there on my chest
Like I could hardly breathe
Strangely enough, I wasn't happy or sad
I wasn't peaceful or mad
I wasn't disappointed or glad
I couldn't actually feel a thing at all
I was numb
I only remember feeling stupidly dump
And disgust to everything & everyone around me
Everyone got on my nerves easily
And I couldn't handle anyone's silliness or random conversations
I shut down on everyone around me
Then I started hating things and even my most beloved hobbies
I gave up
I stopped listening to music, writing, reading and... Just about everything...
Even giving advice and helping and communicating at all
Gave up not only on people, but also on myself
I hated myself
What I was and what I've become and what I was slowly becoming
I simply lost my dreams and passion
My hopes and compassion
It was more like being buried alive
Because it's not a life when you don't have the will to live
Without feeling loved, and wanting some love to give