True sadness

I don't want to see my mother cry
but i no longer have the desire to live
all the tears have been cried
and i have nothing more to give
i don't want to wake up to see the sun
i don't want to see tomorrow
nothing more to life
but sadness and heartfelt sorrow
everything seems meaningless
and i lost all hope
no friend nor fam[ily] can seem
to help me get thought this and cope
with the pain that has weighted me down
and the sadness of life now i face
i feel so lost and hopeless
a life of shame and disgrace
but I'd still risk it all to see him again
even though theres not much to take
a risk of love
love or a heart break
more to what life means to me
more then words
more then family
my life my hope
pride now i stand
facing you hoping
and praying you will
finally understand.me
my heart and what true
sadness really is with
or without you its a choice
if i want to live