Its happening again

A pain shoots up from my stomach,
A shiver runs down my spine,
Oh no, it's happening again.
Tears fill my eyes to a blur,
As my knees start to shake,
I stand up, but only to fall.
Collapsing to my hands & knees,
I feel my heart beating rapidly,
I get up, i have to run & hide.
Fumbling down the stairs,
I open the basement door,
Hurry before mom & dad hear it.
Closing the door behind me,
Felling the cold draft from below,
Down the wooden steps, the floor ice cold.
I fall to floor, rocking back & forth,
Hugging my knees against my chest,
It all comes out so forcefully.
Gasping for air, tears begin to pour,
The screams echo among the walls,
& I bite down to muffle the sounds.
The cries do sad & painful,
My eyes facing the blackness,
I'm so scared & afraid of it all.
My lips quiver as i begin to choke,
My chest caving in so deep.
There, my heart just fell to the floor,
One last dreadful scream escapes.
I stop, sitting still, my mind a blur,
My cheeks crack, the last tear falls,
& I then catch my lost breath.
I open my eyes, still only darkness,
It stopped, the storm has passed,
I pick up the pieces of my heart.
Standing up, my feet gone numb,
I feel my way back up the stairs,
I open the basement door, it creaks.
Looking up, there's mom & dad,