Paranoia?

My whole life
I have always been told
how much of a screw up I am
how all ill ever be good at
is to hurt people

every day
I would be called
a failure

every day I would be reminded
how worthless I am
how I'm a nobody

after a while
I began to believe
what everyone has told me
and how they treated me
for so long

but all of that changed
for so many years
of being told and treated
as a nobody
it took only one
one person
one second,
one look
for me to feel like somebody
for the first time

I fell in love
true love
for the first time

everyday
I'm always afraid
I'm going to mess up

I'm always afraid
your feelings
will change

I'm always afraid
that I will
make you unhappy

I'm always afraid
that I might
hurt you

all I care about
is your happiness
I love you so much
I really do