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by amila Mar 31, 2008 category : Sadness, depression / about depression
Have you ever felt as if you wanted to kill yourself all because of your lacking in someone Else's life as if you bring it nothing but misery and your living in a dark and sad paintinghave you ever wanted to cut your insides up rip your hair out and cry forever have you ever wondered about being in heaven but you feel as if you deserve hell for another's painnot one finger lay-ed on them yet your actions and words are deceiving and they bring all to fall its so difficult knowing you cant and don't want to give up but your constantly being pushed to the edgei hold my head low cause i know he deserves better but theres nothing i can do but think on what it could have beenI'm now learning that I'm losing the best of me the part that completes me and i know he needs me although i need him moreas i drown in the fear of doubt cause the feelings are all wrong I'm never getting out like a football game, going longi hate myself to death I'm ready to leave this earth i have pills and knives but mainly i have my gun which i shall put to my head this night so that no one will hurt anymore because of me
by Baby Rainbow
Great work hunny xxxxxx