You have no one

How do you just live i mean ,you have no one your all alone with just you and your kids ,so tell me how do you live with a cold bed each night no one to wake up to,its like walking in a fog ,with out the fog .there nothing but your kids and you hope their going to do right by you but they have there own life.you now are on your own for the first time in 30 years oh god what am i to do ,do i live or just keep walking in that fog