Silently pleading

There's no use in listening...
everything i say is in vain
no one looks any deeper then the surface
when they haven't got the time
I've tried to hear those who silently bleed
but those that bleed are like me
they'll never let you know
about their suffering

is it possible to swim away?
away from this shore of memories
is it possible to meet someone out there
someone who wont stab me in their bitterness
and walk away
and if there was
who said i wouldn't do the same thing?

i cant trust myself
I've been crushed by the crushed before
it's a sick disease that plagues my mind
the fear that if I'm not the one who stabs first
I'll be the one who is left behind

how can i begin to explain
that i don't mean to lash out
I'm just trying to run away

but secretly i want you to stay

and just for once
could you be the one
who'll accept me for me?