Even though I put my all into him and tried my best to be everything he ever wished I wasn't good enough I sit in my bed at night wondering why this all happened and I realized that though he meant a lot to me that I didn't mean a lot to him so I'm just going to have to suck it up and deal with the fact that he is not here any more, but with the fact that he is happy even thought I'm not in the picture hes happy. So I'm not going to deal with his little kid games going back and forth on and off because I'm better than that and I deserve more than that even though he doesn't think so I do and I'm going to move on with my life so hopefully hes happier with her than he is with me because I'm not turning back to him again like he thinks I will. He isn't worth being upset over and she sure the hell isn't better than me like he thinks you will never see me out there doing drugs and hurting people that care for me like her. When I'm in collage and she is off in her own world doing drugs and hes alone I know hes going to regret letting me go.....because I won't let him back in weather he thinks so or not... but in the end I'm going to be the better person who actually does something with her life <3
