Dear Father

Dear father,
Why'd you bother
Even try to come back
Seeing you makes me yak

I hate you
I really do
You never quit hurting me
Even now as I see
That you lie there dead
Everything runs through my head

Your drug and alcohol abuse
And my emotional misuse
First you're there
Then leaving me bare

Now that you're gone
I feel like a pawn
Like I've been played
And never repaid

But now I've seen
Its not all obscene
You did what you could
and left when you should

You left to protect me
From the things I could not see
Things I didn't know about
I think about it and want to shout

Dad, I could have handled this
I just didn't want to miss
Out on a father and a son
Looks like the drugs finally won

On one hand I'm glad your dead
Going to live on in my head
While on the other I'm filled with grief
That we never experienced relief

From all the things gone wrong
I promise I'll sing your song
I will always wonder what could have been
But I'll try again and this time...I'll win

@ Vincent Thornsberry 2008