Disaster or danger?

When i think of you
Im afraid, i'm afraid to lose you again
Sometimes i just want to forget everything
So that in the end, you won't end up crying

You know i hate myself
I hate me for hurting you
But do you also know how much im hurt too
I feel like being murdered by myself also

I hope i can let you forget
All the things that's worth a regret
I've let you down before
Now, i don't want to hurt you more

I can't promise, that i won't hurt you again
Because, i really don't mean it
And every now and then
It just makes me remind of how you're being treat

When darkness comes
I thought of how it was
Was it a past disaster?
Or an upcoming danger?