Accidental suicide

She lies across her bed
wishing she could be anywhere
wanting to be dead
just willing to be anywhere but here
wondering if the pain of a cut could be enough
she picks up a razor
wishing she could beat it, wishing she was tough
she drops the razor and watches the blood pour
as the tears start to flood
her arm begins to ache
she is lying in a pool of her own blood
she passes out
she doesn't come through
she committed suicide and didn't even mean too