My falling world;the day i lost my baby sister

The phone rang in the middle of the night
My mother calling so late?
I knew something had to be wrong
Crying on the other end, I could not understand a word
With the fear I had inside me, I could not hold back the tears
Flowing down my face like heavy rain fall

I tried to comfort my mother, telling her things would be fine
Even though in my heart, I knew, I was wrong
She is only 11, her body will fight, she will be fine, right?
I tried to convince myself this was true
My baby sister sick and dieing. What could possibly be worse than this?

I was her older sister; I was supposed to protect her
Why didnt I help her, why couldnt I make her better
Could I have done something, something to save her?
Maybe she would still be here with me today, if only I would have done something

I tried to be strong, walking into the room where she laid
So still and silent, I touched her
She was so cold and motionless
Still, just as beautiful as she always was
I tried so hard not cry, to be strong for my family
It was too much for me, I couldnt be that strong person anymore
Emotions took everything from me; I couldnt stop the tears from flowing
I left the room; I tried to run from what was happening
Knowing reality would soon hit