Here Today

This town has just gotten a whole lot colder
The whole hoping thing is starting to get older
I used to sleep with a smile, praying this year will never end
Now I cry myself to sleep wondering where I've been
I'm through with trying to write myself a letter
At first, I thought I changed for the better
There was one person that I always knew would understand
But now we're two different stories, two separate hands
I hear I'm not myself anymore, followed by cold stares
And it's hard when you push away the people who care
The ones I thanked God for suddenly disappeared
I'm left in a dark room, painfully enduring my darkest fear
I have an unbearable thirst for a better day
I make a list of everything that got me to this place
Maybe my constant depression is getting to everyone
Oh God, it's tearing me apart, vein by vein
So tonight as I imagine the possible for the next day
I hit my last resort and begin to pray
I pray that this summer, I won't be so alone
I pray my mind will find its way back home
I pray I just make it through tonight and forget about today
And I pray to God there's such thing as a better day