It haunts me
It hurts me
It's so much more
The love of the sun,
The love of the moon,
It haunts my every waking moment
Like a never ending dream
I walk around like it's okay
When all i want is to scream
No one's here to help me
No one really cares
What goes on inside my head
"Isn't really there"
To some it's my imagination
To some I'm just a freak
But I know what's real
and gong on inside of me
People see me,
and they expect more
A girl without tears
A girl without fears
What they see is different
From how I really feel
I wish it all to go away
But yet
Once I try
It comes back
Like a boomerang on it's return course
When will it stop
Will the pain subside
Sometimes I think of suicide
I've been told that it's not the answer
Though it's up to me to decide
I really don't wish to end my life
Somehow there's still a drop of hope
deep inside of me
I poke and prod
And hope I'll win
But I still know that in the end
I'll lose to the temptations
I'll lose to the hurt
The sooner the better
It's not like I'll be much missed
No one really cares
They just hang around for that much more number of friend
What they don't really know is what goes on inside of me
Ha, like they'll ever know
No one cares
No one talks to me about the deep stuff
It's something I'll live with until I snap
Not telling anyone what's wrong
Why tell them when they don't want to hear?
The death's taunts aren't so bad anymore
They are more inviting
Maybe I'll go visit
Maybe someone there'll care
Maybe... just maybe...
