Alone

I thought i wasn't alone
but these little designs
that are on my legs and arms
they just scream how I'm not fine

but I'll just hide them away
so that nobody can see
I'm done trusting people
who won't ever trust me

i need to find an ocean
to match these inner waves
i just want to go to Heaven
so i can just be OK

I miss the laughs i used to have
i hate how my heart now hurts
i hate how I'm still alone
no one to pick me up out of the dirt

little bruises along my skinny thighs
will hopefully disappear some day
but the angry red poems written on my arms and legs
that pain...it's never going to go away