EMPTINESS

Why do you have to be this way
so unresponsive and so vague
you said we'd still be friends
but all I feel is utterly betrayed

nobody knows how Im feeling
I want this all to end
listening to sad songs all the time
is a means to no end

I want to sob my heart out
but hide so nobody sees my face
I feel like my life has ended
why do I feel such heartache

Its something I have to deal with
its something I have to face
I wish I could just vanish
be gone without a trace

I go to bed each night
dreading all tomorrows
not knowing what its going to bring
I just want to drown my sorrows

I hate this feeling of emptiness
I feel like my heart has been shredded
I feel like I want to be 6 ft under
this is the lonliness I dreaded

I sit here and torture myself
going over and over things in my head
but thats not going to bring you back
you meant every word you said

I hate it when my eyes well up
everytime I think of you
I wish I could just turn around and say
go to hell and SCREW YOU too!