Silence

To stay alive through this life,
life of pain and misery,
i stay up when no one is,
and take my knife and put it to my wrist.

not caring what happens,
just wanting to feel like someone,
a normal human being,
but it only gives me more pain and misery.

i have to stay slient through out this,
so no one will hear my screams,
or my frantic sobbing,
i do this for a few reasons.

a reason of hope,
that someone out there does care and will stop me.
a reason of sorrow,
for not being the perfect person.

and for a reason of saddness,
because i am no good to this world,
so i will do this to finally put my self,
in slience