BROTHER I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!

What did i do
Why couldn't i read in between the lines,
Why didn't i notice you were slowly dying?!

I knew you were going out
I knew you were getting high and drinking,
I knew you were having sex with the random people,
I knew so much but not so much that i thought i did.

I never knew you felt this way
Maybe i should have talked to you more,
Maybe i should have kissed you and held you more,
MAYBE........JUST MAYBE

I remember coming home that night
I remember you calling me but i could not answer,
I remember walking into the house,
Little red tracks lead from the front door to..your door.

I remember seeing you
Just lying there,
Not breathing at all,
A gun shoot through your head,
And little cut marks on your arm.

My throat hurts
My head hurts,
I only went to your funeral,
But i never went to your grave after that!

WHY...WHY AM I LIKE THIS SO... SO.... SO.......SELFISH
I ONLY THINK ABOUT MYSELF! I ALWAYS WANT TO SEE YOU BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD SAY SO HERE ILL WRITE IT DOWN THEN READ TO YOU!

I'm sorry
For not reading between the lines,
I'm sorry for not being there when you needed to talk,
I'm sorry that i was not a good sister to you,
I know that i worked to hard,
But i guess that was to keep our parents out of my head.

I'm sorry that i was not a good sister!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
I MISS YOU
I WISH I COULD SEE YOU
I WISH YOU COULD NOT HAVE DONE THAT
I WISH I WOULD HAVE LISTENED TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!

BROTHER I LOVE YOU!!!!!