I get a text from my friend about 10 at night
tells me her parents had another fight
i txt her back ill be over soon,
get dressed and walk out of my freezing cold room
i start walking away, thinking this is all the same
she does this every week its like its turning to a game
i get to her house and knock on the door
no one answers, so i go to the back looking for more
the back ones unlocked so i just walk inside
call out her name, shes not there, she lied
im not so sure so i decide to look around
go up to her room, her body laying on the ground
i walk over to her, and im worried as hell
she doesnt have a heart beat, but i cant really tell
i turn her onto her back, and her eyes are bloodshot
i cant look back at her she had been smoking pot
tears start to well up in my eyes,
i pull out my razor, and uncover my lies
i cut not once nor twice but over and over again
theres so much blood i think i hit a vein
i lay there beside her, in her hand theres a note
it didnt say much but heres what she wrote
"it wasnt just the pot or the alchole
i committed suicide cos i wanted out of this hell hole
just cos my parents were fighting, it didnt do a thing
cos when i die this way i still win
i get out of this hell hole, this horrible place
i wont miss him at all, i forget his face
he came to my room every night, and abused me
there were bumps and bruses that you couldnt see
he used my and hurt me, so i started to cut
thats when everything got all messed up
i couldnt take this, this isnt my life
faking a smile, using the knife
so i overdosed and took my last fall
for tonight was the night i ended it all"
i lay there with her, i was dying inside
i cant believe she didnt tell me this, its like she lied
we all lie about things, we all fake
but suicide was our big mistake
