I Cannot Face Death !

I cannot face death
Somebody close to me dies
But something inside me said to me
That I cannot face death
It is too early
I am still just a kid
What will I see when I walk into the room were the one who dies is ?
I really don't have an idea
Because a place in me cannot yet face death
Maybe I am scared of death
Some small piece in me maybe is
But why is it that then somebody I have known for over 10 years die
I cannot say a really good bye
Because I am scared of death and I cannot face it yet.