I thought it was too late to find someone I could trust and care for.
I felt that it wasnt worth it to wait for someone who would really care.
It felt stupid to have been there for so many and be left with none.
I felt stupid to have cared so much and just be left in pain.
I had given up and really it didnt matter anymore which way things went.
My mind was made up, I didnt want to try again.
It just felt like too much for me to handle and I had taken enough.
I didnt ever think once you entered my life things would be so different for me.
I never imagined feeling so strongly for someone after all the aches I had endured.
I had experienced the feeling of being happy by someones presence but I hadnt ever experienced feeling the way I did when I was with you.
No one elses smile has ever made me smile as wide as yours has.
Being with you was so different compared to everyone else I had cared about.
Even afterwards I didnt feel any anger or any shame like I had experienced many times before.
I just felt different like nothing I had felt before and I still had these feelings because they were stronger then what I had ever let myself feel before.
And even now things still different compared to everything else.
